The Cost of Immortality

It was difficult to choose a title for today’s musings. Masks, Game Face, Political Pawns, all applicable and all deserving of their own musing. Yet the content remains the same, so it is what it is.

We’ve heard it said many times, immortality is a gift. Hell, I’ve said it myself to motivate pilots. It’s a responsibility, a gift, an empowerment. It is also the worst curse a man could endure.

I was killed yesterday, in the blink of an eye. I got caught in an ambush and woke up in Hek before I knew what had happened. Another crew lost. Another group of men and women I hardly got to know. I find it difficult to even picture some of their faces. But that is not what I am referring to, callous as that makes me sound.

We’ve all experienced deep and personal loss. The loss of a loved one. We’re going to outlive them you know. We die in our ship; a fresh new body awaits to begin our lives anew. Our loved ones don’t share that luxury. Yes, there is the rare exception of capsuleers falling in love with each other, but for the most part, there is an inherent distrust even among allies. I am referring to civilians. Normals. What we once were.

I lost a loved one earlier this year. My best friend. The pain  of it still hits me regularly, and hits me hard. They say time heals. I say time makes you forget. I don’t want to forget him. I don’t want the pain to go away. How could you love someone so dearly only to let them pass from existence by not remembering every detail, every scent, every moment of who they are? It is a grave injustice.

Maybe one day I will join him. Despite our boasting, our immortality isn’t real is it. We can die just like anyone else if we’re caught outside our pod. You wouldn’t know it the way we act, brazenly warping into battle, rash actions causing the deaths of our crews on a regular basis. We are cold and heartless, us capsuleers. Perhaps that is why we are as hated as we are revered. God willing, I will never lose sync with my own humanity.

God willing. I wonder if it was God that willed our current cloning technologies. Perhaps it was in His design for us to be one step closer to Him through it, though I doubt He would smile on our application of it. Maybe the Jovians were wiped out because it wasn’t what God intended. Then again, I am sure there are many things God never intended. My own slavery as a child for starters. The deaths of my crews. Humanity as a whole massacaring each other for no truly inspired reason. God willing. I think not.

I think we’ve forgotten God. I think we’ve replaced Him with ourselves. I am not willing to do that. My best friend is no longer with me. I must believe he is with God. It is the only way I stay sane. It is the only way I sleep at night.

It is a steep cost. I wonder how long I will be able to afford it.

Submission

I know, I know, it sounds like a great story title doesn’t it? But no story again today. I will get back to writing soon I promise.

Apple requires a LOT in order to get an app passed. We have everything ready. Today is submission day.

The only thing that confuses me is they want a 512 x 512 icon of the application for the appStore homepage. When I look there, I don’t see a 512 x 512 square image anywhere. Maybe it’s just me. Either way, I am giving them what they want.

I figure “icon” means no small fonts, not a lot of type at all. Here is what they’re getting, so look for it on the appStore!!!

I will keep you posted as our application undergoes review.

Capsuleer – iPhone Application Release Candidate

Well, the wait is almost over. Capsuleer is in the Release Candidate stage. What does that mean? It means that our initial iPhone application for EVE Online has passed all stages of internal and external beta testing, and is now doing one more final round to a broader, private audience.

Release Candidate testing ends today. Should all go well, Capsuleer will be submitted to the Apple appStore tonight, and could be available as soon as this weekend. It’s very exciting for us!

No screenshots today. Nothing fancy to show. Instead, here’s a feature list:

CAPSULEER v1.0

– no manual api key entry. Adding pilots is as easy as sending an email to your phone.
– multiple account and multiple pilot one step entry. Select all your pilots, or any combination thereof, in one easy step.
– Smart Character application Management. If you enter 1 character into the app, the next time you add characters, it will only display your remaining two. If you enter 2 characters initially, the next time you add characters, it will automatically add the third.
– easy to use, visually pleasing interface.
– Realtime countdown timer with end date and time in long format (Thursday, September 11, 2008 @ 8:34 AM)
– Colour coded timer as visual warning for skill completion (yellow = 25% time remaining, red= 10% time remaining)
– Displays Current Skillpoints and current ISK total
– Displays EVE Online avatar
– Previous state memory. Will load the last character you were viewing.
– Displays skill description of current skill training
– Racial backgrounds per character (can be disabled in options)

Once the official application is released, details on what is planned for v1.1 will be announced. We would like to thank everyone for their support thus far and promise this app will deliver!!!

Please, spread the word!

Veshta Yoshita

PIE Inc is one of the Amarr militia’s most organized and fearsome fighting forces. They understand how to win the war. They understand the order of the day: Secure your home systems then engage the enemy systems. They rarely fly alone. They fight efficiently in small squads. From their war record I would deduce they have flown together a long while as regardless of their fleet composition, they cover their wings very well. I give respect to that.

I don’t know if there is such a thing as a “top gun” when it comes to our universe, but if there is, then for PIE it’s Veshta Yoshita. She is always active. She is very skilled. It seems no matter where I am, Veshta is there, ready to engage.

I am not one to back away from a fight.

Thus far, we’ve engaged each other directly twice. So far the tally is Roc 2, Veshta 0.

Still girlie, I give you respect. You’re good. I’m just better.

Roc’s Renegades

I felt like I could sleep forever. The new body was fine of course. The trauma and exhaustion were still in my mind. I have always found mental discipline to be a fascinating exercise. We have all pushed ourselves further than we believed we could go, then reflected in self amazement at what our minds could make our bodies do. It’s a whole other level as a capsuleer. My body still aches. My mind makes it real.

“Sorry to cut your rest short, Roc, but it’s time.”

I get up from my bunk, and finish adjusting my dress uniform. The corporation has called a formal ceremony. I wonder who has died now. I sigh inwardly at my own callousness. I remember when I was a raw recruit how hard each new death of a friend would hit me. I guess when exposed to an excess of anything we become desensitized. I never thought I would become numb to death.

The Lance Commander waited patiently outside my door until I was ready. As we walk through the hallways towards our corporation office here in Dal, I pick up the feint sense of excitement. It raises an intrinsic curiousity as to what might actually be waiting for me around the next corner. Maybe we achieved a significant victory against the Amarr? That would be welcome news.

As I turn the bend, I stop in my tracks, shocked, not an easy thing to accomplish with me. The entire corp is gathered in rank before me, saluting. Our Intelligence and Tactical Director stands front and center, saluting, the biggest smile I have ever seen spread across his wide face.

“Vorshud Major, ten hut!” I immediately snap to attention, a crisp salute practiced a thousand times over pushing itself into this new body flawlessly. Again, the mind is a wonderful, powerful thing.

“Roc Wieler, for your continued bravery, for your enduring initiative against the Amarr, for your dedication and service to Freeform Industries, for your valor and heroics to all of the Republic, it is my sincere pleasure to award you the rank and title of Fleet Commander. Step forward and accept your promotion my friend.”

My brain autonomously moves my body forward. My thoughts swirl viciously in my head. I had never strived for recognition. To me, it was all politics. Often times you get bogged down in the minutia of day to day operations, effectively severing you from the very thing you live to do. I lived to fly. I lived to serve.

An ensign hurredly rushed to the Director, a small, velvet box in hand, which was accepted with an almost imperceptible nod. The ensign resumed his place in the formation. Turning to me, the smile never leaving his visage, he opened the box. On a fine satin cushion lay an intricate and elegant rank pin facing towards me. It’s design was beautiful, yet fierce. It was a tribute to the skills of fine Minmatar craftmanship.

Removing the pin from the cushion, and pocketing the box, he stepped forward, securing it to my left breast alongside my many other accomodations and accolades.

Another set of crisp salutes, a barked command, and the congregation was at ease.

“I present to you, our Fleet Commander, Vorshud Major Roc Wieler. May he continue to do what he does best, and lead us all to a free Republic!”

With that, thunderous applause and cheers.

My own fleet. That’s all I could think about. No more worrying about the discipline of selfish, untrained pilots. No more hesitation when recruiting from the Tribal militia. Now I get to mold my own pilots into my own vision. Now I get to really take this war to our enemies.

The smile that creeps onto my face is misconstrued by our Director. “I’m glad to see how happy this makes you, Roc. I trust you will do good things and continue to bring us great pride and honour. Would you care to address your fleet?”

My fleet. I see the excitement in their eyes. Many of them are green with inexperience. Some of them don’t even have basic flight training. That will change. I hope they know what they are in for. It will be a harsh reality for many of them.

“Signup for the fleet will be voluntary. Basic Flight Training will be mandatory. Any interested in training to become a dedicated squad commander or wing commander talk to me after this gathering. Welcome to Roc’s Renegades.”

With that, another round of applause and cheering, louder than any previous, erupts from the assembled pilots. I admire their enthusiasm. I welcome their passion.

Now it’s time to focus. Now it’s time to train. Amarr beware.