Tonight, I thought Roc was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a nice restaurant for dinner. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment on it. Conversation wasn’t flowing, so I suggested we go somewhere quiet so we could talk. He agreed, but he didn’t say much. I asked him what was wrong; He said, “Nothing.” I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said he wasn’t upset, that it had nothing to do with me, and not to worry about it. On the way back to his quarters, I told him that I loved him. He smiled slightly, and kept driving the skimmer. I can’t explain his behaviour. I don’t know why he didn’t say “I love you, too.” When we got back to his quarters, I felt as if I had lost him completely, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there quietly, and watched the vidscreens. He continued to seem distant and absent. Finally, with silence all around us, I decided to go to bed. About fifteen minutes later, he came to bed. I still felt that he was distracted, that his thoughts were somewhere else. He fell asleep – I cried. I don’t know what to do. I’m almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else. My life is a disaster.
Firetail won’t start … can’t figure out why.