It doesn’t matter if you win or lose. Spoken by a true loser. Always win.
Quantum Rise
For once, I felt well rested. I was sorely feeling my age last night so I turned in early. My lower back has a bit of a pinch in it this morning; I’ll need to watch my form next workout to make sure I’m keeping my core tight when doing back exercises.
I was heading to “work” already. The Amarr don’t sleep, so why should we? On the way, I decided to stop off at my personal hangar. I wasn’t surprised to see my Chief Mechanic already elbow deep in grease when I arrived.
“How’s it coming with the Claymore?” I asked over the sound of pneumatic tools. He paused for a moment, lifted his safety goggles, dismissed his construction drone, then took a deep breath. “Well, I’un dun got thar new Gist X booster installed fer ya. She’s a right beast she is, but she’ll keep ya well shielded. Had to cram yer hold full of cap boosters to feed er though. We also managed to sync weapons controls directly to yer egg, so ya can be grouping them now fer volley firing. Will pack more of a wallop to yer punch, and reduces the strain on ya while flying. Ye gots enough to be worrying about.”
I smirked. He always had to outdo himself. Weapons linking would indeed be a benefit. It would stop me from having to focus on each weapons team individually, pushing my thoughts as orders to the appropriate systems. Being linked, I could just push my will once, and all appropriate personnel would respond simultaneously. I liked that.
And they got that shield booster in. I was honestly quite surprised it fit. I didn’t even want to know what they had to do to manage that. Damn thing cost me a billion isk. And that’s just one of the five parts I still desired for this ship. I went over the list in my mind:
2x Gist X Shield Boost Amplifier
2x Luther Veron Modified Invulnerability Field
So far, I hadn’t found either of these items on the markets, or through public contracts, or through some of my private contacts. It was almost as if they didn’t exist. And that just wouldn’t do.
After some minor shop talk with my mechanic about some other alterations to my ships, something to do with quantum mechanics, new CONCORD standards, the latest craze for all the hotshot pilots, etc, etc, I left him and his team to return to their work, and I headed to mine.
I was the first to arrive to Freeform Industries HQ this morning, which wasn’t surprising. Lights came on automatically as I entered rooms, and I quickly made my way to my designated office. It wasn’t a large office compared to the directors of the company, but it didn’t really matter. I was quite utilitarian anyway. There was a small basic desk with a metal chair, a neural interface built into the desk. There was nothing else on the desk, and two boxes on the floor I hadn’t unpacked since joining the corporation. To be honest, I hardly ever spent anytime in my office so what did it really matter? I plugged myself into the terminal, and was soon walking the interweb. I saw my marketing partner had left me a message, so viewed it.
“Heya Roc” her image started. “Since that Amarr attack in Gallente space, the market’s been in turmoil. I’m gonna scale back our risk factor a bit, and cautiously keep our business venture going until things stabilize. Commodities are shifting all over the place, so best to go slow. Talk to you soon when I see how this flows.”
Damn. She was my moneymaker. Those remaining parts seemed a little further out of reach. I might have to see what agents were around, or what tasks the corp needed done. Being a military man was my calling, but I still needed to look out for my own personal needs as well. Eventually, this blasted war would end. There was another message from our office manager. “A reminder note to all employees to please decorate your offices. Adding a personal touch to your work area creates a positive environment for everyone. Blank walls and unpacked boxes are not conducive to a team environment.” Subtle, considering I was the only one with a stark workspace. Meh, I’d deal with that another time. Or not.
I read the newsfeeds, continually cursing the Amarr under my breath. Just thinking about them for too long gave me headaches.
I shut down my system, locked my office, and made my way to the Republic Milita hangar on this station. My Fleet Stabber was still docked and primed, ready for action. I might not have as much respect for the patchwork these military grease monkeys did as for my own chief mechanic, but they were fast for military grunts, and always had a ship ready for me. I noticed things seemed to be unusually busy in the workbays this morning.
I made my way to the militia office, throwing salutes when required, until eventually I was seen by a commanding officer I had worked with before. “Colonel,” he began, as I made a crisp salute. “Good to see you here.” We broke salutes. “You’re not due to report for duty until 0900, another few hours yet, but I’m glad you’re here.” He wasn’t the most brilliant tactician I had ever met, but was perfectly suited for this clerical role. He never forgot details, and always knew exactly who should be where and when. “We’ve lost two recon wings near Gallente space. Now as the Gallente are our allies, this is troublesome, given the recent hostile activity of the Amarr towards them. I need someone with experience out there. Someone who can tell me what the hell is going on, and if we’re still on the same side or should be preparing for more grief.”
“I can have my crew prepped and launched in 37 minutes, sir.” I replied. I too appreciated exactness and detail.
“Very good, Colonel. Mission specifics will be ready when you are.” And with that, he turned and walked away onto more pressing matters.
I tapped the comm implant on the side of my head. A small HUD appeared on my retina, and with a few mental choices, I was hooked into my crew’s quarters loudspeakers. “Morning ladies,” I began, my voice echoing with booming results. I called off the roster required for this expedition, and told them they had fifteen minutes to report for duty. I clicked the comm implant off.
Looked like it was going to be another busy day. “A day of change.” I thought for reasons unknown.
Roc’s Rule #57
In conflict, it doesn’t matter if you are right – only that you are left.
Banter
“You’re insane you know.” Sam said to me. “You say that like it’s a bad thing.” I replied without missing a beat. We both chuckled at our banter. “If you don’t stop making jokes, you’re gonna make me drop these weights.” I grunted out between repetitions. As I finished twenty reps, I put the barbell back across it’s holding stand, and sat up from the bench. That felt good. Two hundred and twenty pound bench presses, sets of twenty. I don’t care what people say. For all the wonderful electronic muscle stimulation, clone grown musculature out there, nothing beats good old fashioned free weights. “And when are you gonna actually to do something at the gym, besides flapping your gums at me while I work out?”
It was hard to believe Sam and I had only known each other a few months. The way we carried on, you would think we had been friends our entire lives. “Hey, I’m the brains, you’re the pretty remember?” He winked at me, and we both broke into laughter anew. That is what started this entire debate. “Well, at least that explains why your head’s so damn huge.” I grunted. “But seriously, do a set. It’s good for the soul. I’ll even drop the weights to girly level for ya.” I started removing weight plates, but Sam waved me off. “I’m fine, Roc, but appreciate the offer. Now back to business, there’s no way in hell you’re gonna do it.” He had a snicker on his face. “And why not?” I retorted with an equally mischievious grin.
“Admit it, you love all the attention you’ve gotten in the media. The commercials, the young female fans, the kickbacks. You’re just eating it up.” Sam was cutting at me deep. He knew how awkward I sometimes felt around others. Sure I could hold my own in conversation if it was a topic I had knowledge and passion for. Otherwise, count me out. I’d rather be hiding under my bed. “You know that’s not true, Sam. Take it or leave it really. I could care less.” That was somewhat true. Sure, I had never planned on even having my name recognized. Why would I? I’m just another soldier in another war. If anything, fame had cut me deeply. Not only did it make me primary target everywhere I flew now, but it stripped me of any privacy I had when travelling in Republic space. And I was one for my privacy.
“Uh huh. And the young hot girls that get you to sign their…ahem?” Sam was funny sometimes. When he would get frustrated trying to figure out some programmatic issue, he could muster together a string of curses that would make me blush, but when he was conscious of his thoughts, he couldn’t even say the word boob without turning crimson. “Well, there has to be SOME perks.” I emphasized. We both laughed some more, and finished up my workout.
As I headed for the showers, Sam asked me again, doubt heavy on his voice, “You really gonna do it?”
I gave it some thought one more time. The answer that kept coming to mind was “Why the hell not?” I simply nodded to Sam.
“This is about Mynxee isn’t it?” he put forward. “Not at all, Sam. If it’s about anyone, it’s for you.” I winked his way flirtatiously, and we both broke out laughing.
“Alright, well when you do it, I want to be the first to see.” he said. “Wouldn’t have it any other way. Besides, you think I don’t know you’re my biggest fan?” I waved goodbye to Sam, and hit the showers, leaving his laughter behind.
Roc’s Rule #56
It’s noble to die for your beliefs. It’s better to make your enemy die for theirs.
Valley of Decision – Pt2
I am thirteen years old.
I live on Mekhios, otherwise known as Sarum Prime III. I couldn’t imagine a more perfect place to live. I never want for food nor shelter. I always have work; and I am blessed enough to have been saved from my ignorant past.
God loves me. He personally cares for me. Can you imagine that? The God of all loves me personally. It’s hard to wrap my head around sometimes, but thankfully the education collar helps me focus. The jolt of electricity it gives used to hurt, but now it just reminds me that I am free of my Minmatar prejudices and lies, and can fully embrace the glories of the Amarr if I am willing to reject and shun my old life.
The Amarr are the most advanced civilization in New Eden. They are the most peaceful society in history. They have wealth, power, and happiness for all their people. They were the first to discover space travel. They give of themselves freely to their neighbours, asking for nothing in return. I am so very lucky.
—
“Patterns are holding. He’s accepting it.” the clinical voice says. “Good.” the military voice mutters. “Very good. Continue.”
“It’s not going to work.” says a new voice. “You’re not gonna break him. He’s not some dog, he’s a bloody veteran.” There is an edge of disdain to this voice, an edge of worry perhaps? “Need I remind you of your place,” the military voice forces out between closed lips. “You did your job in luring him here. We are aware of your previous record with the subject, and your comments are duly noted. You are dismissed.” The new voice glares at everyone else, knocks some items off of a nearby table, then leaves dramatically.
“Pod pilots.” the military voice shakes his head in disgust.
—
It’s been a long day. We’ve been working since dawn. I don’t mind the labour really. Over the last few months my body has really begun to develop. I am growing toned and muscular. Mihan likes that too. And I really like her.
We met here shortly after I arrived. Like myself, her family was a necessary sacrifice in order for us to freely appreciate what God, in His infinite wisdom, has given us the opportunity to experience. I used to miss my parents, but learned that they were the reason I was chained to a future without promise; a future without hope. I’m glad they’re dead.
“Roc!” I turn my head and smile. “Yes, Mihan?” I playfully ask. “Quit daydreaming and get back to digging. You know we’re supposed to finish this today.” I look back at my hands and see I am holding a power shovel. “But we’re not digging in the right spot. It’s not here.” I say. How do I know that? I don’t even know what I’m trying to unearth. It just felt right to say. Mihan gets that smirk on her face, and that fire in her eyes that makes me stir in my private areas. “Well then Mr. Knowitall, where is it?” She is fiercely radiant. I have never seen a more desirable girl. I want her so badly. Maybe if I find what we are searching for, we can take our relationship to the next level. Maybe I will finally become a man.
—
“Yes, yes. His neural pathways are following along nicely. Soon we’ll know the location, and then we can be finished here.”
The military voice simply grunts in satisfaction.
—
“You know, Roc, I’ve been thinking.” Mihan starts. “We’ve been involved in each other’s lives for a long time now.” I nod in agreement. “You are the finest boy I have ever met. I know we’re more than friends, but how much more?” She bats her eyelashes at me, and my heart melts. I want to tell her I love her. I want to tell her how badly I hunger to be inside of her. She sees it in my eyes, in every moment of every day. She teases me with beautiful anticipation, always leaving me wanting more of her than she gives. It’s the perfect game. One I am only too happy to play. She turns back to her digging, and as her long dark hair falls over her shoulders, she says “Show me today, Roc. Let’s take this glory for ourselves. Let’s be the ones to find it. Let’s be the ones to receive God’s blessing.”
I take her hand in mine. “Let me show you where we should dig then.” She smiles, and we walk away from the dig site.
Suddenly, I feel a stabbing pain in my head, worse than anything the education collar has given me. I grunt in pain, and fall to my knees. “Roc? Roc are you ok?” I open my mouth to speak, but the pain has silenced my voice.
—
“Dammit man! Are you completely incompetent? What is going on now? I am sick and bloody tired of your excuses.” the military voice screams. The clinical voice trembles, his hands scurrying between multiple diagnostic monitors as a master pianist does across his chosen instrument. “I don’t understand. All wavelengths are within normal parameters. He shouldn’t be responding this way.”
—
I can see it. I know where it is. I desperately want to show Mihan, but I can’t move for all the pain wracking my body. I fall hard to my side and begin spasming on the ground. “Roc? Roc! Can you hear me?” She hovers over me, her hands trying to comfort me, but there is naked fear in her eyes. Her voice distorts and echoes. Who is she?
—
“No adrenaline surges. Heart rate normal. Slightly elevated blood pressure. All brain activity normal. I don’t understand it.” The clinical voice motions for two attendants. “Get in there! Verify all the feeds are still attached. We need to find out what is causing this. If we lose him now, we’ve lost everything!” The sound of pressure sealed doors open and close, and two sets of rapidly moving feet can be heard. There is some brief chatter, then the sound of a large security door sliding back into the wall. Two additional sets of feet join the procession, but these ones are heavier, being clad in armoured boots. The resounding click of guns being cocked can be heard as the two attendants are given the signal by the security team that it’s safe to enter. They quickly go about their work, checking feeds, checking intravenous entry points, checking neural connections. It’s all in place. There is no logical reason for the readings the monitoring room is receiving.
—
It’s day time. I see the bright sun beating down on me. Mihan is over me, cupping my face in her hands, smiling reassuredly like my mother does. Another streak of intense pain.
—
“Find out what is happening, and I do mean now.” the military voice growls.
—
It’s night time. We lay together in bed, something we’ve done before. This is the first time we’ve been completely without clothes. I feel the warmth of her breath on my neck as my arm holds her close. She runs a finger along my chest, sending shivers up and down my spine, and I lean down to kiss her. She slowly rolls on top of me, her pert, supple breasts brushing against me. It stiffens me instantly. It almost hurts. It hurts. IT HURTS! I scream in pain as my mind explodes in agony.
—
“Sir, we’ve found an anomaly. Look at camera drone two.” The clinical voice quickly responds to what the attendant says, driving his focus to the monitor for camera drone two. He increases the magnification slightly until he notices the discoloration on the front of the subject’s skull. “No…” he mutters almost inaudibly. “What is it?” the booming military voice demands. “A frontal hematoma. We’ve pushed his mind too far, and now we’re going to lose him.” All of their hard work; all their planning. Months of waiting for everything to fall in place, and now it was all going to fail, because of this cursed capsuleer. At least the subject will die his final death, not hooked into his pod. There was some small satisfaction in that. “You’d better stop standing there like a deer in the headlights and get your pasty ass in there and do something.” The military voice bellowed. “Yes, yes, of course. Right away.” The clinical voice does as he is told, but he already knows this will be the end of them all.
—
She is magnificent. I continue to thrust into her and she continues to impale herself onto my eagerness. It is the most glorious feeling I have ever experienced. She bounces up and down lithely, savouring every moment as much as I do. She is perfection. “Roc!” she yells. “Oh Roc!” the more she screams my name, the more primal my reaction becomes, until I am forcing myself against her as hard as I can. “Roc! Roc! Roc!” The pain shoots into my head again, and I can’t hear her clearly. “Roc! Roc! Roc! Oh Roc! Roc!” I don’t want to fail her. I can’t continue much longer. The pain is too much.
“Roc! Roc! Roc!”
I release my love inside her, but it’s all I can do. My vision is darkening at the edges. My body is on fire. I want to tell her I love her. I try to form the words. I try to say what is most important to me.
Everything goes black.
Roc’s Rule #55
Find out where your target is. Get them as soon as you can. Strike as hard as you can, and keep moving. Same applies to sex.
Anonymity
That was incredibly satisfying. I laid a fair amount of ISK across the clerk’s desk to cover expenses, then walked out of the video arcade, a huge smile on my face.
“I love video games.” I thought to myself with childlike glee.
20 minutes earlier
I hadn’t been back to the Hole in days now. Have you ever tried finding a new bar to call your own? It’s not as easy as you might think. I could ramble on about just that.
I had been wandering around the esplanade on this station in Rens VI for almost two hours without much luck. Oh ho, what’s this? An interweb cafe? Cafe made it sound a little gay to me, but I chanced a venture inside.
Not really a bar, but it provided public access to the interweb. It apparently also allowed for locally networked gaming. When I was younger, I really enjoyed video games. Flight simulators were my favourite. It’s one of the reasons I became a pod pilot. I decided to sit down and play some games.
I couldn’t find any flight sims, but there was a first person shooter game in progress called “Mortal Fatality Fighter Instincts Turbo” so I decided to join in.
I lost my first game in under 20 seconds. I figured there must be something wrong with my user interface device, so I moved to another terminal.
I lasted 30 seconds in the next round.
Something was apparently faulty. I’m good at videogames; or at least I thought I was. I kept losing to someone named l1kmy@ss1128. I didn’t know what kind of name that is, even on the interweb.
After a few more matches, I was getting pretty frustrated. I am a determined one though; I hate giving up until I win. I had just lost another match when I saw a little message window popup on the screen. “Why don u go home loser?” it said. I could feel my eye tic startup, and the vein in my forehead begin to throb. I quickly typed in my reply. “Let’s go again.” We did, several times, with me losing painfully each time. And the ridicule continued, becoming more insulting, more abrasive and more difficult to decipher each time.
“U r a fag. U fukin suck balls.”*
I was furious. “Listen you little snot,” I typed. “If you weren’t hiding behind your system, you wouldn’t think you’re so tough then, believe you me.”
“Oooooo, im so scared of you faggot. Let me call my friends over so they can watch me kick your ass again.”
If I ever, and I mean EVER, found out who this punk was, I would … wait, what was that sound?
I listened again. I could hear teenaged boys laughing, then the word ‘faggot’. I slowly stood from my station, and looked in the direction of the sound. There were a group of five teenaged Caldari boys at another unit in the cafe. I could hear their conversation.
“And then he says he’ll kick my ass if he ever found me, so I told him he’s a faggot.” They all laughed.
Really? I mouthed a quiet thank you to God, whom amongst the trillions of inhabitants with access to the interweb, blessed me enough to have my dumb idiot seated in the same gay cafe as me.
I quietly stood up and slowly made my way to where they were. I had to keep clenching and unclenching my fists to keep myself focused, the excitement almost too much for me to bear. When I reached them, I simply asked “Excuse me, l1kmy@ass1128?”. The seated Caldari turned reactively to see whom was addressing him. Thank you!
I placed my large hand on top of his head, pushing flat against the skull before closing my fingers into a tightly balled fist. This ensures that the head hair is pulled from the root, not just loose strands. It allows you much better control of your opponent.
“Round One!” I yelled, trying to sound like the game announcer.
I then quickly and effortlessly placed his face through his monitor. There was smoke, sparks, and a bit of noise, but otherwise nothing. The boy passed out. Yeah, I thought as much. And what was that smell? Was that urine? Oh man. I turned to the other four. “Anyone else?”
They were all white as ghosts, shaking their heads profusely, hands in surrender, backing away. I turned back to l1kmy@ass1128, and leaned my head close to his ear.
“I win, bitch.”
* editor’s note: all teenaged asshats quote will be translated into readable English.
Roc’s Rule #54
Trust God; but make sure your weapons are loaded.
Anticipation
“She’s almost ready, Colonel. And she’s gonna be a beaut,” my chief mechanic said. Your configuration for ‘er, it’s a bit pricey, so we may not be’un ready with that, but we’ll has ya a fine ship.”
“You’ve sourced it through all our usual channels?” I inquired.
“Aye. She’s gonna be 4 billion ISK to do up the way ya want.”
Four billion ISK. I simply didn’t have that much, and I knew my corporation nor the Tribal Liberation Force would invest that kind of coin.
“Well, do what you can. We’ve got what, two days until you’re done?”
“Aye. Closer to three, but who keeps track of the minutes?” He smiled at me, knowing I paid attention to those kind of details.
“Very good. Carry on.”
I simply stared at the Claymore. My crews had been working hard on this ship for almost a month, and soon it would be ready.
While I couldn’t get the parts I wanted, I was still excited about the ship. It had been a lot of training for all of us, but I knew it would be worth it.
Now if only I could find the parts I really wanted for this ship.
I picked up a nearby datasheet, and reviewed the list:
Gist-X-Type X-Large Shield Booster
Gist-X-Type Shield Boost Amplifier x2
Luther Veron’s Modified Invulnerability Shield x2
Yeah, those were going to be hard to track down, and expensive. I might have to try new channels. Maybe with all my recent public visibility, I’d be able to get them.
The anticipation was great. I wondered where I could start in my quest for these parts… what new contacts I had made who would volunteer to help me…*
*editor’s note: wink, wink, nudge, nudge
